What’s In a Name?

July 31st, 2010

Lately I’ve been hearing the sound of feet on a treadmill. As much as I wish they were my feet, they aren’t. In fact, I hear feet on a treadmill in the middle of dinner, on my way to work, at the grocery store and in bed before I fall asleep. The feet are running and running. There is the smell of rubber tread, sweat, fear, but most important is the rhythm those feet make.
I am probably out of my mind. I’m okay with that. In fact I insist that I’m at least partially nuts. But the feet. The sound. They’re saying a name over and over, in a drumbeat that says, “Miranda, Miranda Baxter. Miranda, Miranda Baxter…”
I follow the sound in my mind to a laboratory and there is Miranda Baxter. She’s running on a treadmill. The doctors have taken away her name. The mutants have taken her humanity. “Who am I?” the foot steps whisper. “Miranda, Miranda Baxter. Miranda…”
“What am I? Miranda, Miranda Baxter. Miranda, Miranda Baxter.”
The Mutant, R-4, is with Miranda in the laboratory. There are scars and burns on him. He could attack the people who hurt him, but he won’t because they would punish Miranda.
Now there is another name being sung to the rhythm of Miranda’s feet on the treadmill. “Riley, Riley Fortune. Riley, Riley Fortune.” She has given R-4 a name. “Riley, Riley Fortune. Riley….”
Miranda and Riley have a long way to go. Their adventure has barely begun, and yet it is already as ancient as thought and free will.
I wonder what I am going to hear tonight when I’m waiting to sleep.

The Big Lie

July 5th, 2010

Most writers in waiting have one of two things in common: We either try to tell you that we are learning to be patient, or we really are patient. The first set of writers are probably lying, the second set of writers are merely abnormal.
The problems begins after the book is written. First you send it off to a couple of friends, who either read it right away, or who don’t read it at all. When the criticisms and thoughts finally start rolling in, you’re back in the driver’s seat. Life is good. Then you finish the initial round and repeat with a second group of readers. Wait. Re-write. Then send it off to find an agent. Wait a long time here. Rejections arrive. You re-write and fuss and send it back in to other agents. You finally find an agent and you celebrate, thinking you’ve finally made it, only to discover that you are in for another round or two of major edits. This takes a lot of time. Finally the book is ready to submit to editors. Cautiously, you buy cheap champagne to celebrate, because you’re starting to understand that this whole thing takes time. It takes a lot of time. Years, sometimes.
So you tell yourself that you are acquiring patience. This is, of course a lie. You don’t have patience. (Unless you’re abnormal…this could be a good thing.) You’re lying. Join the club. We’re all lying. None of us is patient. Most of us leap into the next project as a means of survival. Write the next book, repeat waiting process. Continue to smile and act like we’re cool with it. Lie. Lie. Lie.
It makes sense, if you think about it. Who are the biggest liars on earth? Who actually hope to get paid to lie? Fiction writers of course. We aren’t trying to be bad… We don’t want to cause harm. We write lies and tall tales and the characters we create feel real and important to us. We actually spend an enormous amount of time immersed in and believing our own lies…and we hope you will too.
I recently discovered an excellent writer, Paul Crilley who has a wonderful new fantasy series, called The Invisible Order. This series features a young girl in Victorian England who in the process of trying to eek a meager living on the rough London streets, gets caught in the middle of a war between fairies. Compound her problems with an evil, fairy hunting human and a nine year old brother who at first glance seems to be kind of a punk, and you have a story rich in tension and drama. Of course I’ve only read the first three chapters of the book which you can find at Paul’s web site, www.paulcrilley.com The reason I’ve only read the first three chapters is because Paul is a writer in waiting. He waited through the process of writing, re-writing, editing and submissions…and he’s still waiting, this time for the book’s release in September. Paul says he’s learning patience. I know what that means. Either he’s abnormal or he’s a really good liar.
Judging by the tall tale he spins in his excellent book, I’d happily judge him to be a really great liar.

Stone Seeker Leaves Home

May 17th, 2010

I’ve spent a good part of the last year re-writing Stone Seeker.  I’ve always loved Arroon and his oddball pack of friends.  I love the book, the story and as it winds up…I’ve often loved it a little too much.  I hesitated to make changes to those wonderful words, because they were all so good.  Then came the realization that I could do better.  Editing and re-writing have been fun, disturbing, exciting and in the end, empowering.  Books are like that.  Just as you feel like you’ve gotten there wherever there is, you find out that there is a whole lot of there left to get to.

 It took several tries to get Stone Seeker to the point where my kids and their friends would read it without wanting to put it down.  Where they’d sneak flashlights into bed so they could read a few more pages.  Where they’d get in trouble in class for reading at inappropriate times.  I’m sorry that they got in trouble, but I’m thrilled that they liked the book enough to feel it was worth getting in trouble over.

So we’re sending Stone Seeker, and with it Arroon, Finder and Miran, out into the world to try to find a publisher.  I’m trying very hard to be nonchalant about this event.  I’m trying to remember to breathe because the process of matching a book with the right editor at the right publisher can be a lengthy one.  Still…I find myself tempted to call my agent, Donald Mass and bug him.  And I want to keep one eye on my e-mail…just in case.  I am somehow resisting these temptations because neither one of these actions is going to get me anything but an irritated agent and a lot of wasted time.

Instead, I’m working on Mutant.  I’ve got Miranda Baxter and her mutant friend, Riley Fortune, stumbling through the Nevada desert, trying to find water and ultimately looking for a home.  I can’t help Arroon and his pals in their search for a publisher—that’s out of my hands.  But I’m still in control of Miranda and Riley.  Their fate is still in my hands.  Books are like that.

The Gorilla and The Lady in Pink

March 19th, 2010

Last week I was at the San Diego Zoo.  So was the Lady In Pink.  The Lady In Pink was an elderly woman with crisp grey hair and a plain pink sweatshirt who has been going to the zoo several times a week for fifteen years.  When I first saw the Lady In Pink, she was talking to the orangutans.  That the orangutans appeared to be talking back seemed like a mild coincidence.  Poor dear.  Just a lonely woman thinking that the creatures could distinguish her from the thousands of humans strolling by every day.  Who are we to the animals but an annoying and probably baffling group who wander on the outer edges of their lives? 

The next time I saw the Lady In Pink I was sitting at the Gorilla enclosure watching the baby gorilla harass his mother.  I was chuckling and feeling sorry for this creature who couldn’t even send her active child off to kindergarten so she could catch a break.  Next thing I know, there was that woman again.  She strode up next to me and opened her arms.  The mamma gorilla immediately got up and ran to stand in front of the Lady.  They conversed in sign language for a moment, then the Lady in Pink asked for a kiss.  The gorilla pressed her mouth to the glass, then bounded off to her offspring and her busy day.

That moment changed the entire experience for me.  Suddenly I realized that who we are matters to these animals.  Who I am.  Even here, among swarms of people, it is possible to stand out; to be important to someone.  I ran across the Lady in Pink several times in the course of the day.  Each time I saw her, she was interacting with the animals as if they were old friends.  Each time I saw the animals pick her out of the dense crowd and respond to her like she was an old friend. 

I doubt she wears pink every day, but to me she’ll always be the Lady in Pink.  A familiar face for the animals and an astonishing eye opening memory to me.

An Unlikely Hero

January 28th, 2010

It is unlikely that it will ever be necessary for me to single handedly save the world from an evil bad guy. But I’d like to think I could if I had to. I’d like to think that like Frodo Baggins, or Harry Potter, or Percy Jackson, I’d be up to the job.
In my world there are a lot of annoying, rude and irritating people, but none of them qualify as world destroying evil bad guys. Thus, I am finding world saving opportunities somewhat rare. Oh, certainly, I can help other people save the world. I can contribute to saving the world. But I have yet to be handed a ring of power or a working wand and even if I had, I haven’t run up against a sufficiently evil individual to use it on.
Maybe this is why my very favorite kind of hero is the unlikely hero. Frodo is a hobbit, Harry is a neglected orphan, and Percy has major attention deficit hyperactivity disorder. These guys are the last to be picked to play volleyball in PE. They are viewed by the world as weak or pathetic or just damaged. That’s why I love them.
Those guys could be me.
In Mutant, my hero is a girl who is dying of cancer until she is cured…and finds the cure worse than the disease.
Arroon is an orphan who has been kicked out of a number of homes and schools.
These two can’t even keep their lives straight, never mind head out and kick some evil bad guy butt. Yet, they do kick butt.
That’s why I keep rooting for them, keep writing them, keep trying to pry the hero from beneath the surface.
Who is the most unlikely hero I’ve ever met?
Me.
And Harry Potter, Frodo Baggins, Percy Jackson, and my own Miranda Baxter and Arroon Walker.

Lights On Water: Brazil

January 11th, 2010

There is a beach in Brazil, nestled into the last remnants of the Atlantic rainforest, where you can walk at night for miles kicking the sand. Why would you want to kick the sand? On this beach, when you kick the sand it glows like tiny fireflies under your toes. I have been assured that this is a perfectly natural phenomena and, as you can imagine, it’s actually pretty wonderful.
We spent Christmas in Brazil with the Brazilian half of our family. In Brazil, Christmas takes place in the heat of the summer and is a time of summer vacations, swimming, and sweating. I soaked up the heat like a lizard in Nevada.
One night, in the interior city of Indiatuba, we all gathered around the family’s tiny swimming pool and gazed, mesmerized at a new device that sent flashes of colored lights careening through the water. I am more of a star gazer than an artificial light appreciator, but that moment wasn’t about the lights. It was about family. It was about having a reason to stand together and share a moment no one else will ever share.
I read a dozen books in Brazil. I shopped in tiny stores where the clothing and crafts were made by the store’s owners. I ate cheese bread and drank chilled coconut juice straight from the coconut. I watched my daughter learn to surf. I watched rain sheet down through layers of banana and palm leaves.
That was Brazil to me. Brief moments of simple joy and family.

Tree People and Forest People

November 24th, 2009

There are two kinds of writers:  Forest People and Tree People.  Forest People see the shape, the blended colors, the general well being of the forest.  Forest People do not look at trees.

Tree People see the shape color and texture of each tree.  They see individual leaves.  They smell the sap rising in the spring.  Tree people do not look at forests. 

When Forest People write, they instinctively focus on the action and shape of a story.  Forest people create tales that drive the reader through with a sense of purpose.  But Forest People struggle to convey place in their work because they don’t automatically understand the importance of the details. 

For Tree People, setting is as important, or more important than character and plot.  Tree people create living landscapes that breathe.  But Tree People tend to meander, lost in the lovely details.

I am a Forest Person.  I want action.  I want to know what happens next.  I don’t want to stop and give the feel and texture of bark, the scent of moist soil and sap.  That doesn’t excuse me from providing those things to readers.  As I work on draft two of Mutant, I am going back and putting in the detail and texture and scents that I missed on my first draft.  Action gives a story purpose, but it is the details that allow the reader to experience the action. 

I enjoy this aspect of writing, where I have to slow down and take note of the setting and the textures that bring characters to life; it deepens the impact of the story, but it is tree work and I don’t find it easy. 

Whether written by a Tree Person, or Forest Person, a good story contains a mixture of forest and trees.  So what are you?  A Forest Person, or a Tree Person?  Which is another way of saying what are your strengths and weaknesses?  Do you see the trees?  Or do you see the forest?

Vote no on change!!

October 24th, 2009

I’m not big on change. In fact, for the most part, I’m against it. Change is difficult. It is uncertain. It is uncomfortable.
And change is utterly inevitable.
For the last year or so, I’ve been working on my newest novel, Mutant. I decided when I started the book that I was going to create a blue print, a story map and I was going to follow it. I was not going to meander through the story, picking up ideas as I went along. I did create a story map and I tried very hard to follow it, but the map kept changing. My story kept trying to change. Worse yet, my life went through a series of massive and highly uncomfortable changes. I kept trying to pull everything back into place—to prod the world into its proper order, but the world will not prod and life moves on. And Mutant moved with it. So the Rhe were born. Walrus faced people from Rhe whose entire culture and existence is built on the theory that change is bad and must be avoided.
And who saves the Rhe from destruction by the evil Metalics? Miranda Baxter, of course, and her mutant friend, Riley Fortune, formerly known as R-4. And how do they save the Rhe? I don’t know yet…but I’m sure it will have something to do with the human ability to accept and adapt to change.
Life’s uncomfortable and inevitable changes provide rich fodder for fiction. When my mom was told she had a terminable form of cancer, I gave Miranda terminal cancer, and then I cured her. It didn’t help Mom much, but it helped me deal with a difficult time, and it enriched the story.
So for the moment I am giving up on the ludicrous notion that I am in complete control of my stories or in complete control of my life.

Peaches

September 24th, 2009

It was always my greatest ambition to be a farmer. I wanted to own one of every kind of animal and have huge fields filled with produce and grain. I wanted to own horses and cattle. I wanted a milk cow named Bossy and a goat named Daisy. I also wanted to own a horse ranch up in the mountains with thousands of acres around me and wide open spaces. I wanted to wake up every morning, walk outside in my pajamas and spread my arms and embrace the wide world.
I do not, as it winds up, live on a farm. When I walk outside in the morning in my pajamas, I am greeted by the sweet sound of the nearby freeway and the musical notes of neighbors mowing lawns. I am greeted by the tantalizing aroma of neighbors cooking a better breakfast than I’m going to cook.
In spite of its many imperfections, I have managed to create a close replica of farm life. When we moved into our home thirteen years ago, our first priority was to get fruit trees into the ground. The next priority was to wage war with the gophers and plant a large, productive garden. This was all followed by more trees, more gardens, raspberries, strawberries, grape vines and four hens. Here we are, thirteen years later and anyone who comes to my house between mid July and the end of August, is plied with peaches, plums, nectarines, green beans, chard and whatever else is producing beyond our capacity to can, freeze, dehydrate and jam.
During these hot summer months we enjoy all the bounties of farm life, minus Bossy and Daisy.

Blogging for Dummies?

August 28th, 2009

Never having blogged before, I turned to anumber of reference books, but was unable to find the one called “Blogging for Highly Intellegent, But Clueless People.” Or the one for, “Mildly Intellegent, but Clueless People.”  Or “Writing a Blog In The Midst of Chaos Without Making too many Grammer and Spelling Errors.” I really wanted the last one, but alas, I am forced to write at the sideline of a raging balloon fight for ten year olds without the assistance of any of the above named manuals. 

I like ten year olds and am particularly fond of my own. Still, as much as I enjoy their company, I am directly blaming all spelling errors on them!(convenient, eh?”) Are spelling errors allowed in blogs? Do the blog police come after you, pull you from your home and toss you in blogger’s jail when you mess up on grammer? Never having blogged before, these are, I believe, legitimate questions. It’s always good to know what to expect ahead of time.

Is there a Blogger’s Police?  An official or unofficial group of people who rate, rank, critique or otherwise frown in disapproval at a blogger’s spelling and grammar errors?  If there is, I am destined for Blogger’s Prison; that official place where they toss people like me who are…how do I say it?  A tad hopeless? 

Two days ago I wrote a letter to a friend who suffered a sad loss.  It was a good, heartfelt letter, written on a lovely card.  By hand.  In ink.  Without the benefit of spell-check.  I read it through, expecting to be amazed by my fluency and outpouring of concern.  What I got was a letter that made partial sense, was missing parts of words and had an appalling lack of fluency.  Did I re-write this card?  No, I did not.  I scratched in missing thoughts, scratched out and filled in the rest.  It wasn’t pretty, but it said what I meant to say and I think my friend will understand the sentiment.

 That is how I write.  I can’t help it.  And while I promise to double check my work before I send it out to be read, I can’t promise that you won’t wince and grimace or outright laugh at my mistakes.  Go ahead.  I just hope you understand the sentiment.

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